Dreams, Dreams, Dreams.

So so so many things have happened. First I finally got a J-O-B! this is the reason why I haven't been writing to you all I've been searching for forever, but I found one. I work at temple bar in Cambridge Ma. I love it so far, of course given the fact that I have not worked in a restaurant ever it is very hard, but worth it thus far. One thing I do know is the fact that for me personally, I do not want to be in the kitchen for the rest of my life. As I said before I LOVE food, and I know that I want to do something involved with it. But as I am working in the kitchen for myself personally I find that it is exactly what I expected, and I was always iffy about if that was what I really wanted to do. I think for right now I want the experience that I need to succeed in anything that I lead to in this industry with food. Be it writing, pastry chef, or the hospitality side. I feel this might be a little repetitive but Hey if I cant talk about it what else is there to do.

Lesson's Learned

Adele =)

Curlycakes- boston cream pie

White lies- harry =)

There are so many times when I hear, oh your young you'll make mistakes and learn from them. But sometimes I think do we really learn from them, in all honesty I feel most people have to make the same mistake many times to really learn from them. Is that a bad thing? I don't think so, were always learning new things and changing but even with learning we have to see it more then once to finally get it. That is the same with making mistakes. Today I had to quit a job that to be truthful I did not want to work at all, and unfortunately for me I took forever to tell the chef that till the day I actually started work. Was it responsible of me? not at all, but it is a lesson that I learned, you have to go with your gut sometimes. And if your gut says no you have to tell that person RIGHT AWAY I don't want that position or in any situation. HONESTY IS KEY especially from the start, and learning from your mistakes is always a good thing. But don't feel bad if you don't get it right away I'm only 23 and I am still making the same mistakes and learning from them.


By The Way: I gave up on the cupcake writing because I am not to fond about the places I have been to thus far. Sweet and Curlycakes have really been a disappointment for me. So I'm debating what to write. I think for now it will just be about my life and experience.

I'm having a block

So as you all can see I did a new post about my cupcakes that I have been waiting to do for a while. But I want to apologize it literally has taken forever to write it, and I think it's because it's something out of my element fully. As much as I would love to be able to write, in a way that it just flows right now I can not. But I do hope you stick by me while I improve on my writing skills.


Lola<3

Cupcake's here we go

So it's has been a while this time. I truthfully just did not know what to write cause I just wanted so badly to start with my cupcake writing. And of course I could't start with out Karl-lydie, and of course she couldn't do it cause she is currently in L.A.! for the next couple of days, the lucky lady. So instead I did it with someone who in all honesty should have sort of been my first choice. This person is someone who like me LOVES cakes, cupcakes, and pretty much anything with frosting lol. So it was my sister Zian (14), actually it is both of my sisters that helped (Avianna,14 is the other). So one is the taster, Zian, and Avianna is my picture taker.

So we start!
SWEET BAKERY- harvard sq., newbury street, and backbay

At the time that we went, which was last week Monday. My sisters being friend's with Jewish people were doing what you should do on passover and not eating wheat or anything with gluten. So keep in mind that we have a regular cupcake and two gluten free cupcakes that we tasted. Which is actually a good thing cause we could now critique another flavor/ texture of cupcakes. My cupcake was the dark chocolate cupcake with chocolate frosting. While my sisters had the vanilla gluten free cupcake with vanilla frosting. Here is the review we have for you all:

First the chocolate cupcake: while it does look amazing! the taste just didn't meet up to standards. For me personally I felt it was so much frosting with a little cake that to me, was just dry and average. Nothing short of a cupcake that you could get a stop and shop that is a lot moister and probably has a better design for the frosting. My little sister Zian did have a quick bit and she was impressed, but even in her opinion said she couldn't taste the cake because of the fact that there was so much frosting.

Second is the gluten free cupcake: I have to say that I am not a fan of anything gluten free, so I will be very biased in this review. To me of course since it is gluten free the cake is more,stiffer? a lot thicker. But for me it was a more flavorful then the chocolate cupcake. To be quiet honest I will need my sisters to right this review so until next week hopefully!!!!

New Look..New Me

As you can all see I have changed my blog design! and I have to say I love it, and I hope you all do too. For me it's similar to what I finally want to write about FOOD. Don't get me wrong my life is still going to be talked about, and such but now I want to start writing about what makes me happy and what I truthfully want to do as a career. So starting next Monday and probably every Monday, me and my friend Karl-lydie will be going to cupcake shops and critiquing them from obviously our perspective. I'm starting with things I love and are most comfortable with so get excited cause it's probably going to be an AMAZING RIDE HAHA.

It's been so long!..but not really

Hello everyone! hopefully your weekend was great cause mine was! This weekend I went to Rhode Island to visit my good friend Arlene. It was fun, every time I go over it like I'm just part of the family and I love it!

We went to a hookah bar, and it was hilarious  but very very expensive so I recommend if you do go to a hookah bar save a lot a lot of money o.k.?

There's so much i want to write but I guess for now I'm just not in the best of moods, and I'm tired. I really need to start my cupcake writing sooooonnnnnnnnnn!  

something to cheer me and you up is my new movie's =)

Very exciting right?! it's literally all of my movie's more so cheap I'm just missing the first Bridget Jones, but that will be here soon hopefully! Anyways good night you all. sleep tight.

Idea's

So this isn't going to be a long post. I have to go to school to drop off paperwork for my last week of my externship!!! meaning I will officially be done with school! I don't know if that's a full yay or nay. But we shall see, that's what I'm writing I have all of these idea's in my head and I'm just not sure which one to follow. First for me is work? I'm going to be honest that I am a little nervous about growing up and being an adult. Second it maybe going back to school to get my BA in journalism and hospitality and pastry?!?! I feel if I am in the back of the house it would be in pastry not that I don't like the savoy side I just love pastry. Then there is the fact that now that I'm home I want to leave asap! lol So we shall see the outcome of all this, but one thing I do know is me and my bestfriend Karl-lydie http://mskayelle.blogspot.com are going to start being a taster of all cupcakes in the Boston area. So starting, hopefully this week, we will be going to different cupcake shop  (I think this might include bakeries) tasting the different cupcakes of our choice and then I will be blogging about it, and taking picks! So get ready, cause I think it's going to get very sugary soon hahaha

I don't think that is a word but o.k.

btw: I really need to start writing more in my blog

Inspiration

Inspiration...such a universal word to so many things for different people. For me especially, being a child, sister, friend, student, soon to be chef,  soon to be baker, and  soon to be writer I'm inspired daily. But I think for me at this time in my life the thing that inspires me the most is doubt. When people don't believe in you, don't you get inspired to prove them wrong? to really show them hey I can do it and even more than that, I can do it and be successful. Unfortunately it's hard, you might be hurt that they have doubt in you especially if they are close to you, or you just might not be fully inspired to do it.

When I was in school I did a stage at Craige on Main, which is Tony Maw's restaurant in Cambridge (AMAZING FOOD). To be quiet honest I bombed I was so nervous, and felt as if I didn't really belong there since it was so high class, and really what did I truthfully know about fine dining except from school at the time. But after that whole fiasco it really made want to learn more about fine dining and even just allow myself to be put in these positions where it is hard for me to feel comfortable.By doing this little by little (and I do mean little by little, step by step) you can really get that courage, and inspiration that you need. So my next little step is to have an interview at Menton (Barbara Lynch's restaurant) and trust me this is FINE FINE dining, and maybe I get it maybe I don't but if I don't try how will I know?

My theory is stay as positive as you can, you have to be your own inspiration sometimes.

Transitioning

What does this word truly mean? To me it means the basic transitioning from one situation to another. The question is how you handle the transition, for me with my hair going from permed to natural is very very difficult. I mean even when I did have it permed it was very difficult so you can imagine now with a huge afro how it's working out. But you know what I actually want to stick with it for once when dealing with my hair. Another transition I'm going through is being in a totally different side of the country, but strange enough I can deal with that better then something that actually involves something physically on me, even this blog for me I thought it would be difficult to put into words half of the stuff that has come to my mind. But as you see, even though it's a little confusing it hasn't been that hard to really put into words. So for me to have to just deal with the transition of one thing that I really want to work on, that makes me happy =)

figuring out my life...

Why is it that we have to figure out what we want in this life so early? Even though our parents and people say you have all the time in the world to do things that you want and to figure out what you want. But for me I think you need to figure out what you want to do, because money rules the world and it's hard to come by these. But not to be to, to negative. I do think that you cant really be sure until you've done something that you truly truly love. And to do that you need get yourself into everything to figure it out...

does that make sense? lol

Positive Me

So my friend told me today that he read my first post and thought it was a little negative. OK I said maybe..but it is true! but after he said that he really got me thinking. In some ways I can be really negative in my thinking..especially when it comes to myself, because I always think I can do more, or just try harder. With that being said, I think I'm going to try and change my outlook about myself. Hard to do I know especially when you've been so negative pretty much your entire life! but hey change is necessary sometimes and luckily I am willing to do that! =)

btw: thinking of what you want to do when your an adult is hard =/ good thing I got it narrowed down to three careers all in the same field! hahaha

first day

I feel as if this is like my first day of computers. First off I suck at all electronics it's like I touch it and bam! it doesn't want to work. Say for instance this...What probably takes most people 10-15 minutes or less to start this step by step blog..It took me a half n'hour!..but of course thats me =)